i am so back

so after countless weeks of having a life i decide to pay my blog a visit and post something. a lot of things have happened and have been happening that i don't know where to start.

maybe i'll start with how i got to meet my relatives in brooklyn. how a death of an uncle got me driving from jersey to new york by myself. how freaky it was that the certain uncle called my parents in davao asking about my phone number and address wanting to touch base with me days before his death. how that freaky premonition moved me to brave the goethals and verrazano bridges and of course new york traffic just to pay my respects for the last time.

things i realized:

• in a big foreign place such as america, it's nice to know i have relatives who despite the distances are still thinking of me and are always there in case i need help. i've always felt alone when i came here and knowing that they are just an hour drive away gives me comfort that i have a family here.
  
  
• death is freaky and it will get you on the most unexpected time and in the most unexpected place.



• there really was no need for me to be scared of driving in new york. i've conquered brooklyn, maybe manhattan will be next.

now on to other things. don't we just love summer? the picnics, the barbecues, the beach. i mean despite our rising electric bills because of my excessive use of the AC, i have to say summer is my second favorite season, next to spring. but then i'm typing this while cool air is billowing in from my open window and the temperature is in the mid 70's. if it went higher up to the 90's i wouldn't say i love it so much but it would still be my second favorite season. too bad it couldn't go on forever. anyway's a lot of things have been lined up for my summer. things like parties, fishing trips, camping trips and a road trip late in the summer are some of the things that i'm looking forward to. hopefully i get to go to all of them. i'm keeping my fingers crossed that i could arrange my schedule so that everything would fall into place.

i make lists

do i have any plans of continuing blogging? oh yes i do! it's just that my days have been busier and i'm trying to focus more on one thing that blogging has been shoved down into the lower rungs of my priorities.

so since i blogged in bullets the last time, let me do it in lists this time.

things that makes me go yay!

1. a warm sunny day where i don't have to go to work.
2. playing with a cute puppy.
3. the idea that i'm going home in november.
4. good music.
5. a nice book.
6. mini breaks.
7. finding out that i've lost a pound despite not trying.
8. being able to sleep at night.
9. remembering a good dream when i wake up in the morning.
10. a quiet, problem free night at work.

things that make me go boo!

1. the last day of a four days off stretch.
2. whiny people.
3. a gloomy rainy weather on a non working day.
4. getting dumped with admissions.
5. getting stuck with crappy tv shows without any good dvd in sight.
6. friends that are not keeping in touch.
7. junk mails and telemarketers.
8. days when you badly needed to do laundry and you don't have any quarters in hand.
9. getting lost in the back roads.
10. people who do not mind their own business.

ok so here's a list of questions that i found in a crumpled piece of paper inside my bag. i don't know if i got it somewhere or if i've written it on one of my downtimes at work or in the train or inside my car. it's really random stuff but i like it.

what's important?

each day.

what do you treasure most?

sunshine.

fave night out?

my couch, a rom-com movie and popcorn.

what did you expect you'd be, but are not?

tall

what makes you sad?

insensitivity of people.

what would you give your daughter?

self-confidence.

what does the world need now?

a little bit more of love.

bullets

this post is gonna be in bullets, because i'm too lazy to string together sentences to make coherent paragraphs.

• thank god we're done moving! we're beginning to get settled, but there are still boxes and stuff lying around the house but right now, i just couldn't be bothered.

• our cable, internet and phone lines have been reconnected yesterday (yay for that!) by two guys from verizon who robbed me of my needed sleep before i go to work.

• it still feels weird having a roommate again but i know i'll get used to it.

• the weather is getting crazier and crazier everyday. why can't it just make up it's mind! i mean, my flipflops are all set to go... he he he

• certain people are getting what they deserve. i just love how karma rules!

• i want a mini break for myself.

• i just realized i haven't read a good book in months now. i miss my books!

• it would be a real treat to watch another sunset again.

• i still haven't gotten around to going to the guitar lessons hannie has been bugging me to go to. i guess i'm gonna be frustrated when it comes to playing the guitar for the rest of my life.

• i hate how i went over my free cellphone minutes last month. how did that happened? i have never went over my free minutes, ever! i guess i should stop talking a lot on my cellphone.

• we're going to washington dc tomorrow to ogle the cherry blossoms...tee hee! i hope the weather doesn't get too cold. we'll leave in the morning, that's why i have to go pack my stuff and end this post....now.

on being thirty

i come home from work tired and sleepy ready to jump into my bed after 12 hours. yesterday, i was 29 years old. today i turn 30... and what a sad day to turn 30, because just a few hours ago i admitted a 2 year old boy who just lost a mother, a brother, a sister and their home in a fire. i heard from the ER nurse that his dad is still waiting for a telemetry bed down in the ER.

it was the most difficult admission i've done not because the doctor's orders were complicated (that was actually the easiest part) but because it was hard to act like i wasn't affected while i was asking the grandmother and the aunt questions for the admission history. i mean how do i ask them about allergies, about their family health history and about that 2 year old's usual bowel movement pattern without eliciting tears from them and not looking like an insensitive jerk. that was so not the way i thought i would start my birthday. i felt sorry for the family's loss. i felt sorry for the boy who all of a sudden has no mommy to come home to. all throughout the time i was starting an IV line on the boy, i kept thinking about what's in store for him in the future and with all the support i've seen from the family, i know that he's gonna be okay.

anyways, i forego sleep and pondered on what i would do today now that i'm 30. i don't wanna do anything special or anything different. i just wanna be with myself.

when i was in grade school, i used to think that i would feel differently when i get to the big 3-0. that i'd be this really matured person who would scoff at people being silly in their carefree ways. i thought that i'd turn into this strict-librarian-type of person who wouldn't know how to have fun. i honestly thought that being 30 would totally suck. but it surely doesn't.

i realized that at 30, i could still watch spongebob squarepants and enjoy it's (sometimes) sick humor. that i could run around the hallways of the apartment building with nicolas (adriana's dog) running after me without feeling silly. i could still play games and ride bikes with my friends kids in the park during our once a year picnic. that i could sit in the playroom with my toddler patient and color books or finish a jigsaw puzzle or just watch the fishies in the tank as they gobble up the fish food and still call it work. i guess i could put it in this perspective. i could still be a kid at heart and get away with it being 30 and all.

a friend asked me the other night over the phone what would be the worst part about seeing my 20's go away? i guess the fact that i cannot go back to it all. that there were a lot of things that i haven't done or tried to do because i was too busy, too lazy or too scared to do it. excuses... excuses... this time there shouldn't be any at all.

life is what happens when you're busy with something else

these past few weeks was a busy time for me. busy in a fulfilling accomplished sense. you see at the end of the month, me and my housemate are moving in another unit, 2 floors below the one we live now. that means we have a lot of packing to do. if you knew of my procrastinating abilities, you'd be proud of me when i tell you that i've packed most of my stuff that needs to be packed. my cds, books, photo albums, out of season clothes and other stuff are all neatly packed in boxes and suitcases. of course there's more packing left to do, but getting a headstart this early is such an accomplishment for me.

in between the packing and going to work, i helped out my friend with his 'super secret surgery'... he he he. i had to drive an hour and forty five minutes to philadelphia to become his personal driver/travel nurse/slave. i had to endure 8 hours of boredom in the surgical waiting room of the philadelphia hospital, was mistaken for his girlfriend and later on for his wife by his doctor and the PACU nurses (which we both laughed about later on) and had to drive back home late in the night by myself (yes dennis, i am writing these things to make you feel guilty...joke!) oh the things i'd do for a friend. see, i'm not such a bad friend after all.

the nice part about it all is that i was able to update my calendar, fix all my schedules and was able to make all the calls that i needed to make in the eight hours that i was waiting for the "super secret surgery" to be over. now for some reason, these things i can't do if i'm just lounging around the apartment doing nothing. the mysteries of life i'd say.

anyways, the weather is getting colder by the day. freezing in fact. the good thing is no blizzards/snow storms in our area...yet. i am probably one of the few people happy about the fact that there is not much snow this year. i love it! oh and i noticed that daylight seems to be stretching until 6 pm now. i just can't wait for spring.

deathly hallows

well, well, well ...it seems that all that anticipation and waiting and theorizing is gonna end in july 21. everyone is excited. well at least everyone who knows what the hell quidditch is or who has a bit of knowledge about the rise and fall of "he who must not be named" should be excited. it is afterall the last of the series. the seventh book that will chronicle harry potter's adventures in the wizarding world. unlike the 6th book which i read in a matter of hours, i am gonna take my time and savor every page and every chapter of this book.


oh man! can you tell how excited i am? times like these, i miss my younger sister and jazz and dr. dada who shares my childish passion over the potter books. i actually pre-ordered it from borders the other night and called up my sis to tell her that i got one for her too. which made her crazily happy.


oh! and borders is giving away snape stickers. how cool is that? i hope they still have some left when i can finally find time to go to a borders store. in the meantime, i have to force myself to get some sleep so that i could survive my 12 hour shift tonight.

the peter pan in me

i've been meaning to post on my blog for the longest time but certain things that we call "work" kinda gets in the way. at first i thought that doing 12 hour shifts every other day was good for me. apparently, it wasn't. it just screwed my tried and tested sleeping pattern that was working very well for me for almost 3 years. good thing i'm back to my usual schedule of either 2 days on-2 days off or 2 days on-3 days off routine. yay for me! now i can spend quality time with my bed like a normal person would. you know, like sleep when there is no sunlight creeping through my window blinds.

anyways, i can't believe i haven't blogged about my recent trip to florida. oh yes! i was one of those fortunate souls to have spent 5 days away from the freezing cold. we were actually driving through the streets of miami when the first snowfall of the year in the tri state area was happening. how is that for a treat huh?



of course the reason for our florida trip wasn't only to escape the cruel weather but also to catch up with our college friends who are now based there. my god! it's been 10 years since we graduated from college. a lot of things have changed , but still more have remained the same. sure were 10 years older, were talking about taxes, mortgages and stuff, sexual orientations have differed but i still see us as the same kids who slaved over nursing care plans and tried their best not to sleep in mrs. veloso's class. i don't feel like i've grown old at all. i've matured...yes, but like peter pan i refuse to grow old. i'm stubborn like that.

in less that 2 months i'll be celebrating my birthday. i'm excited. i can't wait to be 30........ NOT!

looking back on 2006

About You...
Name:	nerie
Nickname:	yeng
How old were you in 2006?:	29
What was the most important thing you discovered in 2006?:	smug girlfriends are worse than smug marrieds
What will you always remember about 2006?:	the trips
In 2006 did you...
Keep your New Years resolution?:	never made any
Go on a holiday?:	oh yes i did!
Change jobs?:	nope
Buy anything from eBay?:	no, but i checked it out a few times.
Prank call someone?:	i don't do that stuff.
Get drunk?:	yes, but not drunk, drunk...if you know what i mean.
Get high?:	no
Fall in love?:	with nicolas (adriana's dog)...yes!
Break up with someone?:	nope
Get married?:	what? and give up my precious sleep hours?
Get divorced?:	no
Stop speaking to someone?:	hell yeah!
Kiss someone?:	yes
Kiss someone whose name you can�t remember?:	no
Make a new friend?:	yes
Do anything embarrassing?:	a few times and trying my best not to remember them.
Do something that you thought that you would never do?:	yeah, that 9 mile kayak that i thought was the death of me.
Do something you have always wanted to do?:	yes, and that is to travel more.
Do anything that you regret?:	never regreted anything i've done.
Do anything illegal?:	is jaywalking illegal?
Break a promise?:	there were times...
Lose something?:	i do tend to lose my mind sometimes.
Go crazy?:	you bet.
Best of 2006...
Movie:	borat... great success!
TV Show:	grey's anatomy
Song:	there were just too many
Album:	nothing in particular
Thing you bought:	the clothes
Memory:	memories of the cruise
Worst of 2006...
Movie:	the omen
TV Show:	reality talent shows
Song:	anything hip hop
Album:	can't say
Hangover:	for some reason, i don't get a hang-over
Memory:	nothing
About 2007...
What do you want in 2007?:	happiness and contentment
Is there anything you would do differently in 2007?:	i guess i'll just take it one day at a time.
Do you think it will be a good year?:	i'm hoping
What do you look forward to most about 2007?:	vacations... anything that would keep me away from work!
Do you have a New Years resolution?:	nope, i never get to keep them anyway.
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