crazy love stuff

i watched a dvd the other night after coming home from an extra 4 hour shift from the hospital. it was titled "it had to be you" and it stars michael vartan of alias fame and natasha henstridge. i was ready to dismiss it as another run of the mill trying hard to be romantic movie, until it hit me right smack dab into the core of my mushiness. it was a movie about finding "the one"-we had the right love at the wrong time-what crazy love feels like?-bakit ngayon ka lang? stuff all rolled into one. those kind of crap... good crap.

i liked this line from the movie:

"all my life i've been waiting for this thing called crazy love. i'm just willing to accept the fact that if i can't feel crazy then at least i want to feel happy."

just to mimic how people talk these days, let me say that this is so sadness. people wanting to settle for something less complicated because they're afraid to take the plunge. people settling for something they think they could be happy with because it's familiar, because it's there, because it's what they've been used to. i myself am guilty of this and i want it to end now. i'm going to risk being hurt again. i might be jaded from past relationships but it's not gonna make me wimp out on future ones anymore. naks!

i am a strong woman.
i can conquer the greatest fears.
i can handle the toughest moments.
i can ignore any pain.
that's why i want someone to make me feel weak
....the way you do.